you know what...

I think that it's wrong that I have a great friend that I thought was great that I confided in and told everything to, thought she was here for me and knows what I have been through in the last 4 months even longer, to stab me in the back and go to my ex husband and talk to him for 2 and half hours on the phone, and then tell him everything that I confided in her. You don't see me in her business talking to her ex husband....
Also I got a new Tattoo on my foot so in love... It's a symbol for a new beginning, and it has my dads intitals hidden in it... It's a good reminder from the past but a reminder that the future holds so much more..

AT A FRIENDS....

I am at a friends house for the night.. so I thought I would blog.. To answer all the questions no there is no job. There is no job out there for a old, haven't worked in 5 years, single mothers. I have tried not like I am not trying, not like I haven't been on interviews.
I am in a bad place maybe it's good I don't blog all the time..

I am here...

I have no internet just a blackberry so it's hard to check anything... I am very far behind on what is going on in everyone's life. I am at a friends house right now..
We actually went to Plymouth Indiana this weekend, Emmalee and I, Cathy and her kids. We got stuck there until Tuesday! Cathy was able to leave but my neighboorhood was evacauated. So we just stayed there. We got water nothing bad though it was dry when we got home. Just lots and lots of mold so I spent yesterday cleaning and bleaching that. I also tried mowing the grass but the lawn mower broke on me so I only got one swipe done. Seems nothing goes right ever anymore.
We are staying here at Desiree's until tomorrow then going home to repack for the cottage, looking forward to going again, hoping we get to come home this time though lol.
Nothing to much more to report. Pretty depressed today lots going on not really in the mood to post about all of it though.
I will try and catch up with everyone soon...

I am alive..

We are spending the day at my Mom's. She recorded a show for me although it didn't record but none the less we are here to watch it. Emmalee is enjoying watching PBS, "it's been a long time mommy since i could watch these shows" "Matt never lets me watch PBSkids.ORG" (Matt is Cody's Roommate).
Things are fine, I think I had a bit of a mental breakdown yesterday, well I know I did and thank you Cathy for allowing me to sob with you. There has been a lot going on and nothing at the same time. I feel always busy but I can't tell you what I am doing though to feel so busy. I feel like time is standing still and Cathy and I were talking last night that this summer has dragged on. It's odd. Summer is supposed to go fast.
Well I really have nothing much to say, so just "hello". Thought I would update while I am at Mom's.